Monday, July 21, 2008
Back to building up confidence again
So much stuff has happened since May. Yesterday was the first time I competed in a road race since the crash at the Avanti Classic.
It was a tough race, but I made it so much harder by worrying too much. I let my fear weigh me down.
Overall the race was good, and I stayed with the bunch, but I didn't drink for over 60km (due to being too nervous), and payed for it with muscle cramps at the end.
"Whatever you hold in your mind will tend to occur in your life. If you continue to believe as you have always believed, you will continue to act as you have always acted and you will continue to get what you have always gotten. If you want different results in your life, all you have to do is change your mind."
Today I think I realised that I need to work on regaining self confidence and handling my fear.
Fear turns into doubt and then correspondingly my lack of confidence increases.
It's something I know I have to work on. I put so much time and effort into my training, that I need to trust myself more when I race.
We'll see what happens in the next few months.